this could just be the shittiest christmas ever.
i dont remember a night since i came back from phuket that wasnt spent tearing away in my room.
it's scary how ive been allowing myself to be so caught up in all that's unpleasant, and wallowing in self-pity.
the truth is,
im just really tired.
this whole emotional rollercoaster ride is taking a toll on both my physical and mental health.
totally stressed out over the christmas gathering too.
it's an annual thing.
i should have gotten used to it right? but no.
things are a tiny bit different this year i suppose. and besides that, i've really been too bogged down by so many things, im way behind my own schedule. you dont want to know how much more i've to complete.
i worry
i ask too much from myself sometimes. and the tiny details are all really impt to me even though no one prolly notices them anyway.
im a perfectionist when it comes to things like that.
i am sorry.
to everyone who has been on the recieving end of my little outbursts every now and then.
yes.
he's right.
i was being overly sensitive.
but everyone who truly knows me will know that the only time i become like this is when smthg/someone is really important to me.
im sorry anyway.
a stressed host is a lousy host.
i'll go calm myself now.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
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7 comments:
my stressed host is always the best host for me :)
i appreciate, i heart and i am always grateful (:
love love and (thanks in advance) for all the food that will be prepared...
because (i know its always yummylicious) i always have to go on an empty stomach and try to stuff myself with the best gourmet spread ever :)
and you know how much i love you no matter what! :)
ure the bestest ever sweetheart
(:
im gonna keep myself happy from now till friday,
because food needs to be cooked with the heart and filled with lots of love... not angst.
and till sunday too thanks ((:
yes, till sunday (: but by then, i wouldnt need to keep myself happy, since you guys will definitely be keeping me happy.
see you on sun (:
agree w/ jo! you are the best host ever dear :)
i feel sorry to hear that you are stressed at this 'jolly' time of the year..me, and i believe everyone else too, always love & appreciate whatever you'v prepared for us - food, yr home, everything! :)
stay happy ya! *hugs*
thankyou dear... ((:
you guys are really sweet.
:) we mean it! all of us on this page at least!! :D
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